13 posts tagged “life”

im in the most retarded situation ever!

AND to cap it all off, it keeps on going in circles.

Retarded situation keep on going in circles?

I must be triple retarded to keep on letting it happen.

Yes, doing rural now...

It's like my very own The simple life spin off...

That's hot....

HAHAHAHA

Yes, I don't like clowns. They scare me... but the real clowns and ppl who are clowns. Actually the latter doesn't scare me, they piss me off.

I have v limited internet access. Need to come to the lib etc. need to get key from ED.

I am starting to learn how to cook, its fun.. sometimes.... :p

i am such a walking zombie.

Times like these, i really don't care about how crap i look.

Hospital from 8am to 4pm non-stop.

I had my lunch at 4.30pm.

i also hate a large chunk of my life.

Ahh.. only if i was a fairy and could change it all.

Yeah wahtever.

WHY THE HELL DO I ALWAYS GET STUCK WITH THIS!?!??!?!?

STOOPID. IDIOTIC. INFURIATING.

pms is sooooo not helping either.

I admit, Im a bitch. But if im not going to look after myself and MY needs who will?!?!?!?

Its not as if you are looking after my needs, so why should i always put your needs before my own?!?!

Sherry is such a stoopid girl.

sure we all get growing up pains.

But i feel that i really am trying to grow up and actually be a participant in life.

Yeah, fate can take us place, but we need to also take ourselves to places.

I also, i like going places, i hate stagnant situations.

It's true. This feeling is not too bad.

But I miss the feeling of someone wanting to protect me.

I dunno if this progression of things is a great idea.

Maybe i finally woke up from my sleep walking, delusion building episode.

I want to be chased.

Like all the other times.

same again.

started by thinking that I would be in perfect control of the situation.

gave 50% thinking it would remain at 50%, ended up giving like 110% (again).

I must stop doing this.

It's a friendship, yet just a little more than a friendship.

Said he would come out with us last night.

Stood me up.

Said fell asleep and forgot to wake up.

I sent a msg, "oh well. fark that. Hope u have a sweet dream and good nite"

The msg that I got was him saying that he is bad news and the problem is that i am starting to matter.

I pondered. I cried. Then my friend made me realise, it's not that I don't matter to him. It's because he is starting to matter too much to me.

Talked to him today. Was honest and said what was on my mind. He tried to open up too which was good.

At the end asked him about the last 2 msgs. I asked if he was trying to protect me by pushing me away.

He said: "yeah"

I just said, "Don't push me away to protect me. It makes me more upset. Just tell me up front."

oh what a rollercoaster ride of a friendship. The two of us, liking to push people away on this rollercoaster together.

yep 50% exponentially increases to 110%. To a point i can't help myself.

yes. another post on open communication.

No i do not sell this stuff in a bottle.

I've just realised something. A true friend is someone who you can openly communicate to.
With regards to most thing, but most importantly their behaviour. It's often really hard to ask "why are you acting like this?" or "you were not happy to see me, what is wrong?". I don't know, i usu find it really hard to ask these questions. I think mainly because I am afraid that the person will either ignore me or think that I am paranoid. But, I do it nevertheless, because I believe that things and issues always turn more sour when things are not said. There will be misunderstandings and grudges etc. So in order to avoid all the heartache later on, might as well be uncomfortable but nip the problem in the bud.

Thankfully this person is responsive.

I am glad you are trying to be open with me now.

Don't let me misunderstand, coz otherwise I will find it very hard to keep this up.

ahh... full of surprises!

I have had a lesson in how to light a fire.

No I am no pyromaniac and is unlikely to become one. I have this strange phobia about fire.

Some one gave me candles ("the best of the best, because Sherry, you deserve only the best of anything"). Awww...So sweet and cute. *heart* *heart* *heart* The candles smell soooooo nice!

Now moment of shame: "I don't know how to light a match or use a lighter"

DMc: "WHAT???!?!"

Me: "Well, i don't use one regularly...."

DMc: "How can u be so uneducated?!?! hahahaha Didn't you play with lighters while learning whether you liked smoking or not? *jks*"

Me: *Blank look*

DMc: *Laughing at me* "Don't worri, Im really good with lighters ^__-"

So, he brought me a lighter. Well, tried to find an 'idiot proof lighter' AKA 'sherry proof lighter' ie. one that will not let me burn myself. Could not find one, so he taught me how to light a candle without burning myself with a regular lighter.

He felt so bad giving me the candles, coz he was really worried that I will actually burn myself.

Don't worry deary, I have mastered the art of using a lighter.. HAHAHA :p

You are such a sweetie!

Everything you've told me doesn't make me think worse of you. It makes me think better of you, because look where you are despite all that! *hugs*

Yep, i am getting good at this.

Telling someone that "I am going to go now" is NOT inclusive.

Assertive sherryspeak: "I think you should use inclusive language, like let's go now OR would you like to go now"

Now they use inclusive language.

So NOT "I might see you on Saturday" but "I will make to note to see you on Saturday".

Ahh... language.

It makes all the difference. Spending 30 mins deciphering whether "I am going to go now" = "I (You and I) should go now if you'd like" is too much of a time waster. Besides, no need for the thought of someone leaving you because they used the wrong words.... ^______^

So funny how a friend of mine is going through the same thing- teaching people re: inclusive language.

hahahahha

you are getting so much better. ^_^